This is one of those posts that has been whirling around my head for a long time and every time I start to think how to address it, something new is added to it and the topic gets a new lease on its chaotic life. What happens when your slave gets old? Can she get too old to serve? Is it ok to tell her she can stop serving now and be taken care of?
This is not just about me, my aging issues and the needs to continue to please a loving Master. It’s an issue in our circle of slaves friends, Masters and Doms. With permission, i am talking about Master Jerry and His slave Haley. Slave Haley first belonged to the man who taught my Owner how to be a Master. She is in her late 60’s and loves her Master more than herself and wants to be His loving slave until the day she dies. However, she also knows her body is not keeping up with her love and the demands she wants to fulfill to satisfy Him.
In a previous post i mentioned about some undisclosed health issues she was having and how when she was here with her Master, she just sat with His cock in her mouth. Nothing more. then they left for home early. She is having those issues of joint pain, inability to move or keep up and to lift things around the house. Slave Haley has problems with sex as it is usually painful or just unable to allow any penetration. So her sexual service to her owner is very limited. She tires easily and prefers to sleep long hours when not being needed by Him.
Master Jerry has accommodated her without any issues except it bothers her that she is unable to serve Him 100%. Last week, they had me stay at their home for a few days while Master-Sir was out of town. For meals, she sat at the table while I sat on the floor. Nothing really new there except now she was feeding me by hand. Each time, she looked into my eyes and i could see her pain. She wanted to be by my side.
Master Jerry explained that He had talked with my owner about the issues they were having. He also made sure that slave Haley was ok with them as well. She tried to smile when she told me she was “ok” with what they came up with. I would be their slave surrogate when needed. When I am there, Slave Haley would assist me, but that most duties and commands would be directed at me.
Like me, she is able to sit at His feet or between His legs when watching TV or outside on the deck. But needs time and help in getting up. So she prefers to stay on the floor and crawl when needed to move. He tries to get her to sit on the couch with Him or on the deck chairs. But she is a slave to the core and doesn’t want to be the one needing the help.
Master Jerry would use me for sex, or at least the start of sex. Him and her would be on the bed, she would watch as He fucked one of my holes as He desired, then pulled out for her to suck His cock as He came in her mouth. I was left to clean myself while they finished the sexual act then we cuddled up and fell asleep. She asked several times for Him to not do that. to ignore her and use me for it all. But His love for her keeps Him wanting to give her His reward.
As for the sleeping, I will either sleep on the floor on His side of the bed or all three of us in the bed with me cuddled up to her.
My Own Fluffy Woes
My life long battle with weight has caused issues with my joints as i have gotten older. So when I “kneel”, its often more of a modified kneel than sitting with my legs crossed in front of me. I try to stay kneeling for long times, but the pain in the joints gets to be too much. Master-Sir and The Pretty Brunnette have no problem with me crawling more than I walk around the house. Once I am down on the floor, I prefer to stay there! Use me like the Bitch Dog that i am named for!
Now I sometimes question why my Mother repeatedly told me about women and age. Maybe she was trying to hint that she was having problems dealing with an itch Daddy was not able to scratch? How do you deal with a partner in your life that shares your “equality” and yet, you need more sex than he feels He needs or can deliver?? She always warned me that women’s sex drive increases with age. Maybe so, I have found this is not entirely true in all females, but it is certainly true in my family. My sisters have hinted at it when we talked about family female issues, not that my sisters like to blame all their sexual or lack of sexual issues on the bad men they dated??
I am really experiencing that increased sex drive it right now! The good news is that Master-Sir likes to make sure His friends and clients get to use me more. I need the use, I crave the abuse and it is my need to serve Him in all ways He desires.
Years of being heavy have made walking as well as knelling a bit painful some days. Thankfully we live in the desert. The dry warm air is easier on the joints compared to the wet freezing cold of the north where I am from. as such, I really prefer to be on the floor, crawling or being used doggie style. Otherwise, it gets too painful if i am being used repeatedly in an up/down fashion. Kneeling or crawling for a short time, then told to stand and walk then told to kneel again. Just keep me standing or down on the floor for a longe time, I really am happy down there!
As I work this issue in my head, oftentimes I wonder if it was just fate or planing, but Master-Sir started hand feeding me while I knelt beside Him at the table years ago and has always had a dog dish of water for me close by. This now comes in really handy because it helps keep me on the floor longer. I can crawl and move about on all fours and its not so painful on my joints as standing and walking and kneeling often.
My happy place is of course, in sexual service to a kind man. And i always like it when they demand to use me doggie style. I am pleasing them, enjoying the feel of them fucking my holes and they don’t have to see if i am crying from the pain in my joints or the pain of being used too rough. I get to be used and they get to use me for their pleasures. My itch is being scratched and i enjoy it being scratched! Its true that being used while in pain is not pleasant, but it serves a purpose. My pleasure is not as important as the person who is using me is.
In all of this, I keep hoping that the itch my mother warned me about never gets satisfied and that i can stay healthy enough to have my Owner enjoy using me to scratch that itch until i die!
Even Masters Get Old!
One thing my Owner and i have in common is the age issues. He is having His own with the need to use the bathroom more each night. He used to be able to sleep all night without getting up to urinate. Now, He has to get up once in the early morning, then again when its time to wake up. He is having issues with this problem even more so when He is on the road because He has to get up, out of bed and go use the bathroom. At home, He just taps His slave and she opens her mouth. He uses her then goes back to sleep.
At home, I have now started to sleep in His room any time He is home. This way, He never has to leave the bed to use the restroom. My mouth is always there for Him to use. If The Pretty Brunette is sleeping with him, I am on a mat on the floor at the foot of the bed or on His side of the bed. He just needs to sit on the edge and wake me up to serve His needs. To be honest, if I am on the floor beside Him, my body just reacts to any noise from His movements and I am ready to serve Him with my mouth. It’s almost automatic. We laugh sometimes at how we are tuned into each other and do this almost without waking up!
Getting Old sucks the big one. However, I am at least doing it living the life I enjoy and being able to share it with the man who Owns me to the end of time and loves me for being His slave.
I’m hoping this little post made sense. We are all growing old. I am still enjoying being His full-time slave and want to be there, like Slave Haley, be at His side to serve His every need until the day I draw my last breath… Never do I want to surrender my spot at His feet for another slave or for medical reasons..